Destroy and Rebuild

lonearrow:

If Kingdom Hearts 3 comes out on PS4 and not PS3 I will travel to Japan and go to Square Enix HQ and high five every employee in the face with a keyblade.

I had lunch with an old friend tonight. I’ve known her for a long time, since the third grade. But out of the 10 - 11 years of knowing each other, we never hung out and we barely talked. We clicked though just like that. I’m not going to tell you I already starting to like this girl cause it probably isn’t gonna happen. And I’m okay with that cause I had a great time with her tonight and we’re going out again in two weeks. We had a great conversation about multiple things. I told her about the way I feel about this town I live in and how I feel about a lot of the people I know here. I even told her about how my mom supports nothing but what she wants from me not what I actually want and she did the same about her mom. Also talked about our individual future plans and what we both want out of this town. She wants to move to Seattle, Washington to experience a new life and I told her I wanted to move to San Diego with two good friends of mine. She wasn’t sure if she wanted to do it or if it was a good idea. I told her to go and find what shes looking for. Hearing her question about it, made me realize that I should follow my own advice. Go for it. So if I can, if I really do have the chance too, I’m going to move to San Diego. If I do move though, it won’t be until the end of the year or the beginning of 2014. I told her I’m going to Seattle in a couple weeks and when I come back I’ll tell her all about the city. She’s looking for a dream, something that interest her that she can be happy with and I told her I’m looking for a mentor for breaking to move up, and a crew to join. Also cause I accepted the fact that I just am getting sick of here and that there’s no future for me here. I don’t like the majority of people in this town and its probably vice versa. I won’t find a girlfriend here. My cousins don’t talk to me really unless a family event comes up. My mom doesn’t support my dreams. My friends outside the hip hop life don’t want to chill with me. I’m thankful though I have my two best friends that support any decision I make. And yes, I do wonder what if me and her did stay. Would we see each other more? Would she gain feelings for me? Would I gain feelings for her? Out of all the girls I’ve met in my whole life, she has to be the nicest, sweetest girl out of any of them. I mean yeah, I barely know her, but in the past we would small chat here and there.  We shared similar interest. I was comfortable with telling her anything. We agreed to stay in touch always even if we do end up in two different cities. Haha, she even told me to fall in love with Seattle so she can have a friend there with her. So, I’m thankful for going out with her tonight. Cause if you know your dreams or if you’re looking for something, you go get it. Don’t sit in your room or bitch about where you are, go after it and embrace it. Work hard, and keep getting back up from a fall. If you want it bad enough, I guarantee your dream will come true.

So after Seattle, I’m going to save and save and save money. I’m going to work more hrs even with my school schedule. And be prepared to leave. Now, I’m not saying its for sure, but there’s a good chance it will be.